God’s Call
I have felt it for a while now.
This call from God. This thing in my life that gives meaning and light to all of life.
I wrote about it once on a folded piece of paper. It must be at least eight years old. It says:
“I LOVE to sing. I feel Your pleasure when I sing. I LOVE to write. I feel Your pleasure when I have written a poem or thought and get it just right! I LOVE to share my experiences and our relationship with others to encourage and build them up. I feel a call. To what purpose, I am not sure, but I feel it. Lord, open my eyes to Your plan for me. Show me the doors You have open for me. Help me keep my eyes focused on You that I may not lose my first love. Help me discipline myself that I may spend time daily with You. Teach me to listen.”
God’s call. He marked me off as different, put passions and dreams in my heart. Each step of faith I take I wonder if I heard God’s call right. I question myself, “Am I crazy?” I consider quitting. This call thing isn’t easy.
Though each step I take God confirms. He reminds me of past prayers and dreams. He sends others to encourage and walk beside me. He humbles and trains me. Through the process He qualifies me.
Me, the girl whose heart nearly beat out of her chest when she had to speak in front of her class in high school. The girl who almost missed grace and was a stumbling block for many people. I still battle control issues, anger, frustration, selfish ambition. Yet somehow God’s call is still strong. He doesn’t call me because I am perfect and never mess up. In His grace He uses me – sinful, prideful, silly, control-freak me.
I am humbled and honored that He does.
What is God calling you to do? Know that His call is bigger than you, but through Him you can answer it.
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Learn people’s stories. There have been times that I’ve been so self absorbed, I’ve ignored the opportunity to share or fellowship with the people around me. And what I’m learning is that our connections are not accidentally made, that God has a purpose for putting people in our lives even ten to fifteen years ago or even if we don’t remember them.
So true Daniel! God uses all our relationships for His purpose and glory!
I think God’s just calling me to obey right now. He’s given me a directive; I just need to learn how to follow without asking questions, without doubting his involvement, without worrying about the outcome. Please pray for peace in my heart over these!
Rachel, I am praying for you as you obey and wait for God to move. It is hard to wait, but He works so many thing out in me as I wait. Blessings sweet sister!
Thanks for posting. The guy i was planning to marry (we were planning to get married) succumbed to his struggle with alcoholism. He had been in recovery for quite some time but fallen business plans seemed too much. He broke up with me and gave no reason. I was devastated. For 6 weeks i was in complete turmoil. God spoke to me and has called me to pray for him until he surrenders. It’s been 5 months now. I keep praying. Every time i even think about giving up, God brings me to my knees so fast i can’t even believe it sometimes. I’ve been keeping a prayer journal during this whole time, but satan has been antagonizing me more than ever this past week. I’m just in awe at how God can speak to us and confirm it in scripture and through online devotions. Please pray for me and for us. Thank you
OH Angie. My heart hurts for you, but I am so pleased that you are being obedient to God’s call. I am praying that God blesses you and brings this man you are praying for back to Himself. I pray that you will wear your helmet of salvation and use your sword of the spirit to protect you from Satan’s lies. Cling to God and continue to walk in faithful obedience to Him.
Praying for you Angie. Praying that you continue to obey God. Praying for him to come back to God. Praying for peace and comfort for you. May God richly bless you.
I think the Lord is moving my ministry forward. Everyone can pray for me that I will be OBEDIENT!
Praying for you sistergirl. Each step faithfully obedient no matter how big or small.
Hi Angela, looks like you wrote this a few years ago so you may not even see this or be on this blog anymore. I found this in “googling” online about God’s call on our life. I’ve had a lot of frustration and anger but in the last couple of years, I also discovered one of my greatest sources of joy. I finally found the courage to speak in front of a class of children. I was invited to come as a volunteer, because of my knowledge with a certain topic. In the past I said no to those kinds of things, but felt like it was time to try a new way: saying “yes”. When I did it, I realized in a powerful way that I felt God’s absolute peace, joy and a sense of His pleasure when I was doing that. I felt alive and like there were parts to myself I hadn’t seen cuz they were stuffed for so long. I told God after that I wanted to experience more of that. I want His peace – I want to be doing His will. I hunger for that. About a year later, I was asked again to teach something in my son’s class. Loved it. Again. But that was a one-time deal. I tried to look for opportunities where I can do more of that and have just felt confused by my circumstances. Have you ever felt like that? Anyway, thank you for sharing what you said about “feeling that call”. I identified with that. I just get so angry maybe because I feel like God’s not seeing my efforts to walk in His will and move towards what He has called me to do. Life is short and I don’t want to waste it. I’m afraid I’m not going to figure this out – what He’s wanting me to do or where He wants me to go… anyway, thanks for this topic and for letting me find a place to share my thoughts.
Sheri,
Do I ever know that frustration of having gifts, loving to use them and God saying…WAIT…or not right now…My heart hurts with you because last year God was teaching me to wait…I even had to turn down an opportunity to use the gifts God gave me…The break I had been praying for…all because it wasn’t God’s timing.
It isn’t easy, but we have to trust God with our dreams of how to use our gifts. He may surprise us with opportunities we never would have chosen, He may work things out so we have to say no, but we have to trust His ways and His timing…
What I learned about the waiting times, the figuring out times is that they are just as important as the “arriving” in our call. Without those times of trusting God, resting in His ordering circumstances, stepping out in faith when He calls us to we can’t fulfill His call when it is time.
Trust God. Step out in faith when He directs. His presence will bring you peace.