A Moment in the Sun: Feasting on Daily Manna

Last week felt like darkness…

A sick child, battles over school work, a co-op class to teach, my seminary class work to do, and life…

It felt heavy and dark and never-ending…

I’m never going to catch-up. I’m a terrible parent. And I want more?!? I can’t even keep afloat with the children I have…I’m crazy I want a book deal?!? My brain circled and swirled. No matter how I planned or plotted it just seemed that I had too much.

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I felt like a lion too exhausted to bring down the kill, but nearly starving to death. Why do I choose to starve when God gives me manna for today? Sure it is only enough for today, but if I eat it today it sustains and satisfies. If I hoard it, thinking there isn’t enough, and try to grab more it goes bad…spoiled…moldy…rancid. And I starve because I didn’t use it all for the day God intended it…

I act as if God only gives sparingly or somehow He isn’t aware of all the things I have to do in one day. I look at the manna He gives for the day and shake my head.

It’s not enough.

I listen to Satan’s lie and grasp and cling for something anything else to sustain me throughout my day. I hunger for affirmation, assurance, peace. The more I frantically grasp at things that do not fulfill me the hungrier I become.

And the truth is God gave me enough manna for today – enough to sustain me, strengthen me, guide me…for today…

Tomorrow He will provide again. He’ll give me enough grace, love, sustenance to walk with Him all day long.

So today I took some time to feast on the manna He gave me for today.

I spent a moment in the sun…

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I enjoyed the manna for today…

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And did not worry about tomorrow…

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How do you make sure you do not borrow trouble from tomorrow?