I Wrote That. . . Ouch

I wrote the post from yesterday on Sunday. . . I titled it What if I Looked for God’s Glory in the Mundane?

Yikes that is a LONG title.

I wrote things I meant, things I long to do, like, “Oh to no longer see my circumstances as good or bad, but as part of God’s perfect plan, His severe mercy, His unexpected gifts.”

Then Wednesday came. My stomach cramped and life was not working how I planned it in my head. I started circling the black hole called “ugh.” The repairs we need on our house seem to keep getting more expensive. And yes I know it is a first world problem, but how to spend money in a way that honors God stresses me out.

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I started reaching for labels like bad, but remembered my words. I battled to say, “No not bad, God’s plan.”

And this verse kept coming before me, “The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14

Be still, rest, relax because God is fighting not me. Cling to God fight in the Spirit to be near Him, but God will fight the enemies around me if I only be still. When I am still He can tell me what is the right thing to do. When I am still I can wait, which is what He is teaching me to do this year. Wait on the Lord and be blessed. Wait. Be still. And look for God’s glory in it all.

I have not even begun to reach my ideal of clinging to God’s purpose even when I don’t understand. I wrestle with God and cling to Him. Sometimes the wrestling is soothing to my soul and other times it burns like acid. God knows when it is time to soothe and when it is time to burn out the disease in my soul.

So I pray along with Paul, “Only let us live up to what we have already attained.” Philippians 3:16

Father God help us to live up to the things You have taught us. May we live to honor You, seek You, and draw near to You. Renew our minds so we can see our circumstances from Your perspective. May we cling to You when we do not understand trusting You will make us more like You and knowing You are the only one we can go to. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

 

Angela Mackey

Author and Speaker

Angela is a stumbling woman in need of God’s scandalous grace. Through faith in Jesus’ sacrifice on the cross, she bears the name Christian. She speaks and writes to make much of this God, His only Son, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit who lives in her. She graduated college with a Bachelor’s Degree in Nursing and is a Registered Nurse. She also obtained her Masters of Arts in Biblical and Theological Studies through Knox Theological Seminary.