Today I woke up feeling like all my nerves were raw.
Every little thing that didn’t go right stretched and irritated.
I spoke with an edge. I asked for forgiveness from. . . the whole family. . . more than once.
And it hurts because I don’t want to be cranky and mean.
I tell myself I know God gives grace and I can rest in Him, but I don’t.
I run from thing to thing sending up prayers asking God to bless me. . . without asking Him to show me what He wants.
And I do what I don’t want to do. . .
And just because I am cranky doesn’t mean my family deserves my wrath or frustration.
I try to rein in my thoughts. Focus on what is pure and lovely, true and right…
And I can’t do it myself. I may want to think I can, but I can’t.
I am depraved and broken and I need God.
And He is waiting for me to come to Him. . . His burden is easy and His yoke is light.
But I pile things on myself and I chide myself and I wonder why I’m stressing out…
And the truth is only God can do it in me…
And God forgives.
And God gives grace.
How good He is to give us grace!
What do you do when you feel cranky?