I've been quiet lately. Not writing much, fighting a cold, and praying for direction. The kind of direction that could mean difficult decisions. What would God have me do? Right now He says wait, but waiting is difficult for me. Waiting means I can't plan.
I like to see life stretching out before me, but instead God has me waiting. The waiting has a definite end and yet I still fight against the wait. What should I pray for and how should this waiting end? What answer do I really want? What will it mean for those involved? What if the answer is no? What if it is yes? My hear squeezes at the possibilities.
All God asks me to do is leave it at His feet. Why can't I do that? He is the author of all I see. He is sovereign over all things. Why do I think I have to hurry along the waiting process? Don't get me wrong. God wants us to be wise and make plans, but He also calls us to wait on Him.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Do not be wise in your own eyes;
fear the Lord and shun evil.
This will bring health to your body
and nourishment to your bones.
Oh to trust in the LORD and not be wise in my own eyes. I pray I follow God's direction and not attempt to speed along the process.
And that seems to be the word God is pounding in my heart for this year. Two years ago God used the word stretch and 2012 was the year to grow into the stretched out spots. 2013 is the year of wait. Wait for God to move then go. Don't race ahead of Him. Only walk behind Him and wait until He directs my steps.
What word is God giving you for 2013? Will you share with me?